My writing is my escape. I don't entirely understand my own emotions and identity, so I don't expect others to entirely understand them either. However through writing I can work towards explaining myself, to others, and most importantly to myself. Often people will jump to conclusions and often I find myself wishing they'd give each other a chance to explain themselves. Now I have made myself that chance by creating this blog in which I will simply post assorted pieces of my works of writing. Some will be creative, others autobiographical, some may even be prophetic, all with display assorted perspectives that I have experienced throughout my life. Some of these perspectives I have discarded for other ones, or changed to create a more open minded worldview. My hope with this blog is to slowly build myself an identity by the feelings I felt while writing the pieces, and hope to convey to the people I share them with.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Think Deeply


We do not think deeply enough. We do not take anything seriously anymore. We fear the power of other people’s thoughts and words and refuse to take responsibility for our own thoughts and words. If we thought deeper we would perhaps see the severity of our situation. I am talking about the fate of our souls.  I refuse to believe there is nothing after death. In fact I know what comes after death, for me it is eternal life in Heaven.  Do you really want to risk missing out on that? Don’t you want to give yourself the best chance you possibly can?
I believe in the amazing blessing and miracle that is our bodies. It saddens me to witness people abuse them. In the name of fun and bonding we poison ourselves with drugs and alcohol.  I do not judge, however, because I have been there before.  In weak moments I have abused prescription drugs because I liked the way I didn’t have to be in control anymore.  I have felt the need to drink alcohol so I could be as relaxed as the people around me and have a good time.  Yet, during those times, I felt nothing but fear and conviction.  Just last night I went to the bar with friends and I had a great time. I didn’t have to drink at all. I learned how to two-step, including a complicated spin. I had SO much fun and I was STONE-COLD-SOBER!
Most people don’t stop to consider the different levels their being consists of. I believe there is three (kind of four) parts. There is our mind, our active conscience; our body, the physical part; and our soul and spirit, the, of course, spiritual component.  It is our spirit and souls that we do not stop to consider as often as we ought.  God created us with our soul and spirit, very intricately I might add. He knit them, and He knit us together in the darkness of our mother’s womb.  Before she knew us He did (Psalm 139 “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb… My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.”).  Our spirit is a powerful place in our being. God designed our spirits as a place where he could reside in us.  Where we could come to meet him. 
Our soul is the human part of us and it is comprised of our emotions and instincts.  The soul is intertwined with the spirit. So if we allow ourselves to sin (sin instills itself in the soul) it can in turn taint our spirits and cause a gap to form between God and ourselves.  We cannot have a living relationship with God when his dwelling place within us has become impure. However Christ Jesus, the Word, became flesh (John 1:1-14) and by believing in him we fortify ourselves against sin.  Our being is cleansed and because “the Word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit…” (Hebrews 4:12) we don’t have to lose our connection with God. We must continue to renew the power of the Sword of the Spirit though! A sword cannot be wielded and brought against the enemy unless it is picked up!
Is your soul tainting the dwelling place of God? Or is God not in his dwelling place because you haven’t had the chance to invite him in?  I encourage you to clean house and let God in.  Our bodies are the temple; may we hold them in reverence and may we be sanctified.  Yield the Sword, meditate deeply in its meaning.  Do not fear what it says, that is the devil trying to steal God’s power in our lives.  Think deeply my friends, reflect, how do you want your eternal soul to look? 

“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood,  but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.”

                                                                        ~ Ephesians 6:12-17

Monday, August 27, 2012

Fall, My Friends, and SOAR!


             You’re running.  Running from what, you don’t know.  It feels like you are hardly moving, and that you aren’t running fast enough. There's sweat running down into your eyes and your clothes are plastered to your skin.  You're breathing harder, and harder.  Your heart is pounding and it skips everytime you look over your shoulder and think you see a phantom in the shadows, and then, suddenly, you are falling, and you wake up.  That feeling you get when you fall and than wake up? That is what I’ve been feeling every day for a very long time. 
            Every now and then I think about things and I get breathless and tense, as if I reaching for something, anything to hold onto.  I just don’t want to hit the ground.  The things I worry about the most are out of my control.  If I stopped worrying I wouldn’t have to feel that way. 
            I think it is when we cease to worry, and when we cease to surrender to fear, that we can embrace the free fall. In embracing the free fall, that is when we learn to fly. So, my friends, embrace life, and soar…

"but those who hope in the LORD 
will renew their strength. 
They will soar on wings like eagles;
 they will run and not grow weary, 
they will walk and not be faint."

                                             ~Isaiah 40:31